Often I am afraid to do the work I really need to do.
But I keep returning to my craft and I never stop working at it. I have often felt art is a secret super power that everyone possesses. A power that can help us stay open, stay young, be curious, heal and work through problems. Especially during difficult times and uncontrollable circumstances, being creative helps me stay grounded and connected. There are so many ways to do this (drawing, painting, writing, sculpture, building, gardening, fixing, cooking, body movement and/or music to name a few) and a person can start any one of them at any point in their life. It is facing the fear and criticism of actually creating something that is the first hurdle. Making space and time for yourself is the second.
“What will come out or change if I embrace myself as a creative person?” I think that is the most important part. Your voice and your significance are what people around you may fear. To keep you from creating they will make fun of how ‘bad’ your drawing is, or how silly we look if we try something new. What is so threatening about being open and supportive? Why is it so detrimental for adults to make mistakes or be ‘in progress’ humans? Is it that our opinions may be challenged? That we find out we don’t know half of what we thought we knew? We’re not ‘experts’? Our assumed roles and rules questioned?
For these reasons, showing the work is also hard. I do it here to convey my belief that everyone can exercise this secret potential. All of our work, play and expression can be influential on many levels.
That said, I realize how very fortunate I am to be able to have the resources to be and stay healthy, housed and relatively safe at this time. Many do not have this privilege. This acknowledgment spurs me on even further to try to work through fear, apprehension, and doubt, even if sometimes I don’t know what the ends will become–the opportunity to work and create that I feel everyone (including non-humans) deserves as much as health, clean air and water, fresh food and habitat. Below is a gallery of some of the work I have been engaged with.